2008, Why it sucks, and why 2009 will be better

Well. For me, 2008 has been a difficult year. My Grandma was diagnosed with terminal cancer of the lungs and stomach. We put her in hospice care, her health declined, and she passed away. She pretty much raised me, but in the past few years I've been busy (no, that's a poor excuse, I just didn't make the time) and didn't spend as much time with her while I could. That is something I will always regret.

The guy I've liked for a few years continues to be oblivious. Well, he's either oblivious or ignoring me. I'm not sure which would be more hurtful. Anyway, I feel that I am over him, but being over it still warrants a period of mourning.

Now, 2009. The Year of the Ox according to the Chinese Zodiac. My Zodiac year. While I don't really follow the Chinese Zodiac, being more familiar with the Western variety, I hope this might be a good omen for me. I will be changing job titles within my company, which is exciting. And, because I no longer have feelings for a certain someone, I won't be slave to my heart. I hope not to develop a crush on anyone else, and instead concentrate on making a few good friends.

I have a naturally cynical nature. That has to go. I will remain positive if it kills me. That would be ironic, no?